i'm glad i never kissed her
it'd given me something (nothing) to miss
I have always had a bad habit of projecting my desires onto others, in whatever capacity befitted my wandering heart. Namely, in regards to romance, I had some semblance of an ideal woman. Since I was just a kid, around the age of 4 or so, I can recall thinking on—or wondering about a “helper” as God put it in
Genesis 2:18: “Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.”
These lyrics are focusing on the necessity of self-restraint and patience in regard to expressing oneself romantically. We cannot trust every inclination of our deceitful hearts.
i've always been a fool
for kind words said from lying lips
I have made many mistakes, not for lack of want.
but it seems
i have lost my taste
or rather maybe
it's something i've gained
Glory be to God alone for gracing me with godly desires.
i'm seeing shades again
ghosts of lovers i had kept
and thought i held so deep in my heart
I only ever thought I knew what love was.
the memories remain
haunting my heart and head every day
and the hollowness won't fade
Mistakes, sins, the seem to plague us relentlessly at times. They can make us feel worthless, or make us question the reality of our salvation in Christ Jesus. Feelings are not everything, and coming from our deceitful hearts, they are not always true. The only proper, and true person to trust the Lord Jesus Christ.
what i once thought full
is now just an ache
some wounds heal
into scars that take
I was a huge fan of Lord of the Rings when I was younger, and these lyrics reference Frodo’s scar from the Ringwraith in the Fellowship plaguing him even in the final installation of the movie trilogy, and being in part the catalyst for him going with the elves into their land (I totally cried in theatre).
i recall long nights
by my side
The insomnia of my youth revolved around existential dread, and the desires of my lustful heart. For lack of want, and met with the reality of our own actions, we are tortured by the needs we do not realize. We place blame on God, and refuse to take into account our own thoughts and actions.
but now i take every day
as it comes
i know deaths
on the way
doesnt matter to me
on which page
Phillipians 1:21 “For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”
i look towards the end
not to finish
but to begin
and it's nothing i can comprehend
Isaiah 65:17 ““For behold, I create new heavens
and a new earth,
and the former things shall not be remembered
or come into mind.”
like in those long nights
wondering if I was in Your sights
why nothing ever seems all right
maybe that's cause it ain't
We live in a fallen world. Everything is pretty messed up. Things don’t work out in the way that we think they will. Our very perception is fractured, and broken. Honestly openly seek and reject anything other than, and seek to take on a biblical worldview, and things will begin to make a lot more sense. However, faith will be of necessity, as well as great joy.
i thought a girl
could bring me grace
but they all left
without a trace
Placing your hope or faith in anyone other than Jesus Christ is gonna mess you up, hard.
but yeah I'm alright
if no one sees me with Your eyes
because of Your Sons sacrifice
I'll still die a happy man
trusting in Your plan