Spoken World

singer-songwriter / sojourner

Recently

Part of me is tired of waking up. Given free time, the monotony of full time work seems like a welcome fall back. Albums are still something I go to for advocacy and reassurance, but no song speaks to all I feel which compels me to write. To say my writings are cathartic is a good starting point. In practice I really am just trying to do my best to reconcile my troubled heart and head with the peace of Christ. I know in the end everything will be alright, but it doesn’t keep the every day and the past from haunting me. The resolve of this train of thought: penitence is more of a lifestyle than a passing emotion. I long to be past all of this, to look back on the shadow of death and laugh with the knowing short of joy that we will have on the flip side of all of this. As for the here and now it is enough to

“…know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”

—Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭ESV‬

also

“For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened--not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him.”

—2 Corinthians 5:4-9