GAIN (commentary)

i have a sinking in my stomach

and aches that run through my bones

ive found an emptiness to conversation

that makes me feel so at home

I've lost reason in feelings

our hearts they speak deceit

and the longer that I live

the more I fail to see


“The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? 10 "I the LORD search the heart and test the mind, to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his deeds."”

Jeremiah 17:9-10 ESV

This life can be pretty tiring, yeah?

I long to lay my head

to the dirt 

and know that I've done

all I could


“For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭1:21‬ ‭ESV‬‬

a great many things in life

I will never know

and I've come to understand

that knowing is not what matters most

a'lot I've to say

your ears wouldn't keep

just as lungs fail to give the thanks

that each breath should weep


There are a lot of things we are not going to understand throughout our every day. This includes ourselves (reference Jeremiah 17:9-10). We take a lot for granted, and aren’t half as thankful as we should be for all we are blessed with. This mentality should be emulated in every situation and circumstance, because even our very breath is something we are given and take without gratitude; the beats of our heart, uncalled for, however constant, or erratic. Life, although fallen, has a lot to offer those who would be willing to learn, and love.

to hear well done

is more than I deserve

all the same

it’s all i hope for


“For we know that if the tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this tent we groan, longing to put on our heavenly dwelling, if indeed by putting it on we may not be found naked. For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened—not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him. For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-10‬ ‭ESV‬‬

there's a fullness to this life

that is double edged

a language we interpret 

an art we counterfeit

tell me if this is all there is

why that conviction

is so very hard to admit

We don’t recognize the blessings bestowed upon us by our very existence. We can argue against purpose with our feelings, and yet—with the same logic—our feelings would be irrelevant. The Spirit of God, all He has created, and the sacrifice of His own son Jesus Christ attest to a purpose far better than we could ever conceive, and without the gifting of it, would never know of.

Thanks be to God.

tell me do you count the cost

a soul is quite a lot

to be lost

I beseech you to not for another second put aside the eternal significance of the salvation offered in Jesus Christ.

“because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, "Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame."”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭10:9-11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Hang on look to and hope in the promises of God above all else.

“The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭145:18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Dylan White