FEAR

 

behind windowpanes

we passersby

staring never caring

enough to stay a while

 

investments far too much

vulnerability a fear

unless it's feel good

and nothing to hold dear

 

everyone's so slow to come

yet quick to leave

and though i understand

it's something i can't believe

 

 

the capabilities we have

in each day and age

are taken for granted

so painstakingly

 

though we're satiated

we're discontent

nothing's good enough

and we don't know what is

 

 

the wonder is lost

on our newborn minds

so easily maybe it's

not there to find

 

innocence

and sanity

aren't ours

they're His

 

pray may we humble

our haughty heads

ask for His

guidance


LOVE

 

there's a joy to honesty

that most can't relate

 

an openness that leaves us

feeling all estranged

 

tangible feelings

we try to ignore

or misappropriate

 

 

and it's eating at my hopes

it's eating at my dreams

 

I want to love somebody

as much as You have loved me

 

though I know in this life

there are no guarantees

 

 

bone of my bone

flesh of my flesh

 

I've been wondering

have we ever met

 

if we did I don't know

that I'd know if we had

 

 

and I'm sick and I'm tired of wondering

 

my father says that I won't have to eventually

 

 

I try to keep my mind on Christ

not the comforts of this life

 

to love at all costs to myself

and to fight the good fight

 

but with no one by my side

 

 

each day gets harder as I go

and You say it's not good for us

to be alone

 

but if I am to be

it is well with my soul

 

 

'cause I am not who I used to be

I am a new creation

I am redeemed

 

it's nothing

that I have to see

to believe

 

 

but at times it still seems

that it's all still on me

 

even though You said

it is finished up on that tree

 

 

it's hard to take

being told to pray

 

when what i feel

it seems that no words can say

 

Thank God Your Spirit

intercedes for me

 

 

for every tear

and every sigh

 

that tends to keep

my troubled

 

heart up at night

 

I rest in Your promises

I know that you're by

 

my side

 

 

Hallelujah

You set me free

 

Hallelujah

I don't need anything

 

in You I am complete


GAIN

 

i have a sinking in my stomach

and aches that run through my bones

 

ive found an emptiness to conversation

that makes me feel so at home

 

I've lost reason in feelings

our hearts speak deceit

 

and the longer that I live

the more I fail to see

 

 

i long to lay my head

to the dirt

 

and know that I've done

all I could

 

 

a great many things in life

I will never know

 

and I've come to understand

that knowing is not what matters most

 

a'lot I've to say

your ears wouldn't keep

 

as lungs fail to give the thanks

each breath should weep

 

 

to hear well done

is more than I deserve

 

all the same

all i hope for

 

 

there's a fullness to this life

that is double edged

 

a language we interpret

an art we counterfeit

 

tell me

if this is all there is

 

why that conviction

is so very hard to admit

 

 

tell me

do you count

the cost

 

a soul

is quite a lot

to be lost


HOPE

 

like paperweights

in the back of my head

 

like layers of skin

i wish that i could shed

 

memories

i wish could be like the dreams

 

the ones I wake up from

and I forget

 

-

 

but i wake up

and it's all the same

 

it's hard enough

to make it through some days

 

just trying to keep

my head on straight

 

I'm just trying to keep

my head on straight

 

but I can't and I fall apart

more often than not

 

i'm okay with that

if it shows you where to start

 

but i can't keep

those happy thoughts

 

that keep me off my feet

they all slip past my eyes

 

before my hands

can even reach

 

-

 

everything's not as it should be

including me

 

everything's not as it should be

 

-

 

would the child you were

be okay with who you are

 

are you really content

with all that you settle for

 

do you really have

everything that you need

 

when you're faced with death

will you go as confidently

 

-

 

see that day's coming sooner

than you'll ever know

 

and you'll stand before the throne

of the One who spoke the words

 

that encapsulate all you are

meant to be and all you mock

 

in the end all that matters is

if you're known or if you're not

 

-

 

I pray you are


HAVE

 

i'm glad i never kissed her

it'd given me something to miss

i've always been a fool

for kind words said from lying lips

 

but it seems

i have lost my taste

or rather maybe

it's something i've gained

 

 

i'm seeing shades again

ghosts of lovers i had kept

and thought i held so deep in my heart

 

the memories remain

haunting my heart and head every day

and the hollowness won't fade

 

what i once thought full

is now just an ache

some wounds heal

into scars that take

 

 

i recall long nights

longing for

 

someone

by my side

 

unsettled to

my core

 

but now i take every day

as it comes

 

i know deaths

on the way

 

doesnt matter to me

on which page

 

 

i look towards the end

not to finish but to begin

 

and it's nothing i can comprehend

 

like in those long nights

wondering if I was in Your sights

 

why nothing ever seems all right

maybe that's cause it ain't

 

i thought a girl

could bring me grace

 

but they all left without a trace

 

but yeah I'm alright

if no one sees me with Your eyes

 

because of Your Sons sacrifice

I'll still die a happy man

 

trusting in Your plan


FAITH

 

if you truly care for me

than pull no punches

if i bleed than i bleed

i simply want honesty

is that so much to ask for

apparently

 

i just need a little

something more

than everything

i've been asking for

 

i've no clue what that is

i just hope and pray that it exists

 

does it exist

 

 

if we've hope

of which we don't speak

if there's wonder left

for us to see in this world

 

tell me where i have to be

i'll go till my legs give out

from underneath me

i swear i'll give my all

 

 

here it is again that dreadful swell that pools

within my every cell

and beckons forth a truth

my heart and mind cannot dispel

 

you see if deaths a gate and theres a key

and hells for those who go willingly than we

lie to ourselves

its something we do all too well

 

 

break me down and build me up

ive seen what my wretched hands have wrought

if its finished i am too

take me up in arms with you


DRAW

(instrumental)


CLOSE

 

i heard you've been

searching for peace

 

is it not found with

the company you keep

 

or does it all seem as empty

as the life that you lead

 

 

ive been a friend

to fools for so long

 

i've gotten so used

to suffering harm

 

throwing all my pearls to swine

thinking things would change with every try

 

--

 

i find that i am tired

most of the time

 

longing for more than what

passes me by

 

--

 

it's another day another night

more than i can take though i try to fight

 

i am beaten like the grains of sand

on the few shores i've had the privilege to stand

 

--

 

and i'm lost and as found as each one of them

tossed by the tides every foothold i've tried

 

i beg the ocean to just take me in

 

i find myself embraced like a warm summers night

on an empty beach

 

the fullness of Your being

far more than my mind can take

 

but my soul feels inflamed

 

 

and those stars aren't thrown across the sky

but each of them placed

 

and to think any less of ourselves

well that's a disgrace

 

we're all fearfully

and wonderfully made

 

home's not here

He's calling

He's coming

 

the appeal of this life will fade